Saturday, March 10th

What a wild ride. The last 24 hours of my life have been a fucking nightmare. From the time I got home from work last night, I've been wanting to find a hole to crawl into to hide. My house is like a war zone, and it started with my uncle hanging up on my cousin when they were talking on the phone. I guess she told him that she has terrible parents. He, naturally, got upset (it was his birthday) and hung up on her. He then decided that he wanted all the pictures of his daughter taken off of my aunt's computer, which sits in the living room. My aunt flipped out on him for touching her computer, and pulled the power plug to it. Basically, it only escalated from there, and I walked into this whole situation without knowing about it. I went to use the computer when I got home from work, and my aunt exploded on me - just absolutely went off. I slowly got up and walked away...facing her the whole time (psychos throw things at you...so I needed to watch for projectiles) and went to my room to cry. I never cry...so this was kinda bad. I've just kinda gotten used to the problems here and problems in life and have learned to deal with them...but last night got to me.

This changes things.

Me: +2
Psycho Bitch: +1

Damn - she's closing that gap.

Then came the phone call this morning from my mom. She called my aunt to read her a bulletin that my cousin posted on MySpace, which I've pasted for you to read here (all spelling and grammar errors were left the way she typed them, and I removed names):

"This is real: Iv'e done nothing wrong and I've only told the truth. My parents don't know how to be parents. My mom she's an alchoholic and smokes marajuana she could care less about me. My dad I used to think he was cool and he dose'nt belive me when I tell him I was mollested by my moms "trusted" friend. I was mollested by -name removed- he's a fucking pervert and i want his A** in jail! the rest of my family belives me wy can't my EX-parents. im tired of them choosing what they want over me. So i say screw them im better off without them. Just in case any of my mom's friends read this tell her that i hate her and my dad thev'e done nothing but almost killed me. Iv'e slit my wrist to the pint where ive not even noticed the physical pain but focused on the damn mental pain. All my sorrow is all their fault. i never want to speak to those a-holes again! And as for -name removed- his ass in is in deep f****** trouble. He helped f-up my life now ill help F-up his. when hes in jail the only action hell get is a big immate behind him when he drops the soap."

So. Yeah. I dunno.

I talked to my ex boyfriend this morning, and he told me that I'm rotting and dying inside. Ooo. I must be loads of fun to hang out with, huh?

That's all for now. I promise I won't cry again. I'm stronger than that.