Thursday, February 15th

I've been staying away from home as much as possible. My aunt isn't as sick anymore as she was, but she still drives me crazy. The Lapdog finally left this morning, after being over since Monday. When he left, he said he'd see me this weekend. What the hell, man? I swear he thinks he lives here. He also drank Sugar Daddy's entire bottle of scotch that he keeps at our house. All this time, we thought it was my aunt drinking it. Apparently we were wrong.

My uncle thinks I use too much coffee. I buy all the coffee we use, and I still get told that I use too much. I told him last week that I'd just start buying a darker roast so that I don't use as much, and he acts like it was his idea. This week, any time he caught me in the kitchen, he'd say, "You know, sweetie, you should buy a darker roast so that you use less grounds. I know you like your coffee really strong, so I'm just trying to help." It literally makes me want to rip my hair out.

When I came home last night, there were a dozen roses on the kitchen table for my aunt. They were really pretty, so I wanted to ask her which one of her boyfriends bought them for her...but I didn't think she'd appreciate that too much.

Oh! I almost forgot! Before my aunt got sick, she had The Lapdog over one night, and she was pretty drunk (as always). Anyways, she and The Lapdog got into a discussion about her daughter (the one in Arizona) and this whole custody battle thing. My aunt got all belligerent and started screaming, "I don't want that kid anymore! She can stay there! I don't care if I ever see her again - I don't want that kid!"

Yarly.

I mean, there are a lot of reasons why I'm unsure if I ever want to have kids. One of these reasons is because I don't know that I could be a good parent, and I don't want my kids to be all screwed up as a result of that. So, why is it that people like my aunt can get married, have a kid, screw half of LA, and then get all mad because somebody is taking away her "victim" status? All of this bullshit is because my cousin told her aunt and uncle that her mom cheats on her dad. Now, because her daughter told somebody about that, she thinks she can just get rid of her?? Heh, wow. Anyways, sorry this was so scattered and unorganized.